I know I haven’t been a regular blogger of late – things for me have changed. Fear not, though. I hope to fix the lack of posts very soon; especially with the upcoming 1 year anniversary of this very blog! I just want to keep you up-to-date on what’s been happening in my life lately.
It’s the experiences that make us who we are, right? I’ve been thinking lately that this is something I maybe need to address. It seems recently like my life hasn’t been heading anywhere. There’s nothing new happening, my job isn’t really going anywhere, and the quality of my own personal life feels like it is deteriorating. Let’s take a closer look at these issues each in turn…
There’s nothing new happening
I’ve been totally uninspired lately, and this is probably the reason for the lack of content appearing on this site (Sorry ’bout that. Like I said; I hope to fix that). Do I need to go out more? Take a trip? I know there’s something out there that’s fulfilling enough for me, but the issue is just finding the bugger! I enjoy talking to you guys, but I do get worried that someday the fire will just fizzle out. I do strive to make sure that day isn’t for a very long time. Recently I have turned my eye towards some casual amateur photography, so we’ll have to see how that pans out.
My job isn’t really going anywhere
Most of us spend the majority of our lives at work – more so than at home. Every day is a challenge just to remain motivated. Right now it feels like my days are just ticking by, with nothing new happening at work. I literally do the same stuff every day; and I see others progress in their lives/careers and think “why isn’t that happening to me?” Then I often wonder if it was part of the plan to shove me out into a corner, forgotten about. The truth of this is that it kills me inside; yet I’m always remain to be the positive, friendly and upbeat personality that masks the utter sadness of my position that I find myself in. It’s probably time I consider other opportunities.
The quality of my personal life is deteriorating
I often wonder if I am normal? Do other people have the same issues as me? Am I weird? Am I crazy? Do I fit in? What do other people think of me? OMG what about my clothes? Do I look normal?
…Do other people have these concerns? I think the current standstill I find myself in I think has made me a very lazy, unenthusiastic and sad person behind closed doors. As a person, I feel like a weird form of anxiety has crept over me and it’s unhealthy. It’s made me want to keep my distance from people. However on the opposite end of the spectrum I feel that I don’t get enough ‘out and about’ time. I only have a small group of friends who I see and keep contact outside of work. I don’t socialise with them enough. They’re busy. We’re all growing up now and beginning to have our own lives, and in some cases; families.
Time to change.
Okay, you know me to be the person who is funny, positive and upbeat. That is the person who I am, and will persist to be. As I have been typing out this very post I have given myself a main goal which I want to achieve: contentedness and happiness. And my quest to achieve this goal begins now.
A friend recently told me about a tool they use to stay positive: a positivity jar. Take one thing a day that has been positive; you write it down and stick it in the jar.When you get down, take a look back at all the positives you’ve experienced, and try to feel better. I like the idea of this tool and I will start this tomorrow. I’ll let you know how I get on with that.
I’m going to have a complete shakeup. I’ll completely de-clutter my home of the stuff I no longer want/need and adopt a “clear home, clear mind” approach. I may even redecorate too!
And there you have it. The complete and honest reason for my absence. I realise that when I’m not blogging, I’m not enjoying my life as much and I absolutely do not intend to close this blog soon. Especially as we have our first anniversary to celebrate next month!
Being sad and doing nothing about it will not achieve my main goal, and it will not prevent the problem. I will not sit and do nothing.
Phew that feels so fucking good to talk!
P.S. This was just my little down moment; I have some great stuff planned which will be coming up over the next couple of months and I cannot wait to share with you!